an excerpt from my journal from quite a few years ago...
"My little Brianna now has pneumonia. Oh what a week it has been! She has an aversion to medicine so 3x a day I sit behind her on the floor and wrap my legs around her trapping her arms in the circle. Then with one arm holding her in a headlock I tilt her head back and squirt in the medicine.
She grew sicker and stopped drinking. Now, it's virtually impossible to find a vein in Brianna. Children's hospital in Montreal and teams at SHRINERS have tried and failed. When one is found it's good for one use before it collapses. So when she stops drinking IV fluids are not an option. So, countless times a day I once again trap my daughter in my arms and legs, put her in a headlock and syringe in water, juice, milk, any fluid I can get in. She screams, fights, struggles, occasionally chokes yet I have to carry on for her very life depends on it. It breaks my heart. Emotionally drained I sat and rocked her to sleep tonight. And as I held her so lovingly and prayed for her health I wondered how often we resist Gods best for us. I know I often fight God just as hard as Brianna fights me. I know I often feel as though God has me trapped and is forcing life on me. Yet I force fluid and medication on my daughter...because I can see the big picture. I believe we need to remember that it is the same way with God! Just as Brianna doesn't like her medicine we don't always like what God sends our way, but He loves us OH SO MUCH and He sees the big picture. Our best is the ONLY thing on His mind!! Lets stop kicking, screaming and fighting, crying "UNFAIR" and thank GOD that He loves us enough to make us fighting mad when necessary... It IS for our good after all!